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[The handwriting is neat and legible, if slightly florid.]

I see we've acquired a circus this time around.

Be careful who - and what - you bargain with.

Or you may find you have paid a great deal and gained nothing.

Too true. I'd hate to give away everything for nothing.

There are also a good many things you will need to do - or find - for yourself.

At least, depending upon how you want to end up.

I'd like to end up well off, if that's all fine and well. Most people do, don't they?

Oh everyone does. Unfortunately reality often is not cooperative with those who merely sit and expect it to treat them well because they exist.

But if you rush, you go around in circles. I don't blame people for being uncertain. After all, one inch forward is darkness.

Are the only choices you recognize truly between "sit still and beg charity" and "run in circles blindly, floundering"?

You forget harassing everyone I see, setting things on fire, and contributing to the circus.

In short? No, they're not. And I don't beg for charity.

Really.

The way you've been attempting to fish for answers based upon "wouldn't it be nice" and "isn't it what anyone would want", you could have fooled me.

I think we're misunderstanding each other. I'm not trying to wheedle or whine or expect anything for free.

Then what are you after?

With you or in general?

Both. Either. As little as you know of who or what you've been speaking to, they may be interchangeable.

Right now? With you? Conversation.

I don't know who you are. You might know who Rei Kurosawa, Taka, Raven is. Maybe written, maybe not.

Until you can answer me, with your voice, who you are and I can believe you, I can't tell you more than that.

Does that help?

There are many things I cannot or will not say within these pages.

And some where I would need more reason than that to discuss them.

As do I.

What if I offered an exchange of information?

And what information would you have that would be of use to me?

And not utterly asinine to transcribe here?

Stories.

Again. What stories would be of use to me.

And not idiotic to repeat via a medium where essentially anything will be aware of the conversation.

All stories have a use. They don't even have to be true to be useful.

It's up to you whether you'll take the risk, whether it was this medium or another. Whether I'm worth your time, or this is just a waste of it is up to you. You have the cards with your anonymity.

We'll see what happens, either way.

Simply because everything has a use does not mean it will be of use; hammers are 'useful' and 'have a use' but would be pointless to toss to someone drowning.

You dangle 'having stories' that 'have a use' as if that is supposed to mean something to me, with little to nothing for me to believe that what you offer would have a use currently. You call speaking on something anyone - or anything - can read a 'risk' to calculate, with no care for what might be done with the information by other parties, how much you may give away, or who you may put in danger by doing so. You offer bargains without even knowing who or what you may be speaking to, what might be demanded of you in payment for anything given.

That you have anything you would consider of value remaining after doing so is a matter of pure luck.

And you are desperate over something, which is even worse in this place; choose to bargain when an offer is made to give you what you seek, and not only will what you gain be a mockery of what you wished, but the price will be far more than whatever you think you are offering in return.

[It's some time before she writes anything. But then: ]

You've given me a lot to think about. Thank you for your time.

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