nero spills feelings by accident

[betterthangarlond]

[ The entry begins shaky-handed. Nero is still unsure of this book - but he needs to write this down. He needs people to know. His writing ends up quite elegant - very cursive, but readable. It goes out around midnight - Nero needs to get this out. He has wanted to scream at people, and this is much healthier. And easier as his throat feels so sick... ]

The Void is not to be messed with. Even in the era of the Allagan Empire, I thought this would be known. But they did fall - due to meddling with the powers of the Void. The records of two reigns of Emperor Xande was no mistake. In the waning years of the Empire, he was revived by Emperor Amon, and given the power to conquer more. However, death had scarred him far too far. Even after crafting Dalamud, his ambition meant nothing.

He made a pact with the Cloud of Darkness, one of the oldest creatures of the Void. Not a simple beast, but a being of emptiness who could create darkness to flood Eorzea. Life has no meaning, if death is to follow... perhaps he had the right idea? As long as he were dead, the Cloud of Darkness could seep out at any time. They are still a threat.

To create this, he required power from Dalamud. This power is what ended the Third Astral Era, and brought on the Fourth Umbral Era. To think, most theories of the time were wrong. If only I could share this knowledge, perhaps I would be worth more. Knowing them, however, it would be written off as the words of that damned Garlond. Or perhaps another adventurer will steal it and sell it? I wouldn't put it past them.

The Voidgate was sealed, as was the power, due to the powers around it. It re-awoke with much hidden with Dalamud returning, and Bahamut arriving. As did Doga and Unei - other clones.

Dearest children of Allag, given the blood of emperors as well. They seeked to stop the re-awoken Xande, but needed the help of others. As did I - but for the power of that Voidgate. Stronger then Ultima Weapon, perhaps stronger then the rumoured Omega Weapon, if it still existed. And so, I followed - even if it meant working with Garlond. Curiousity got the best of me.

A pity, then, that those adventurers needed to kill Xande and leave the Voidgate open to steal those two. I followed, to seek that power. At least, at first. They were immune to the Cloud of Darkness, due to their own pact. I, however, had to protect them from monsters.

If I am not there, any other Voidsent would kill them quickly. Even if garbed in traditional Allag wear and being able to use magic, there are many threatening beasts who could eliminate them and end the only hope left for Eorzea to survive.

Perhaps those who adventured to the tower desired this. I wouldn't put it past them - end the XIVth, and forget about saving them before doing their own damned adventures. Run with Garlond and find another land to protect.
If I were dead, they would not survive. Doga and Unei deserve to see what the world can bring them, with or without me. I want them to have happiness, and not have to continue living their lives of destiny.

I'm far too tainted to save. All those injuries leaving Void on me - and in me. My blood is purple, as is my skin. Even washing does nothing to remove it from anywhere. Not even my armour. A mockery of what it was. As with all of this. Another land? Don't make me laugh. This is simply another part of the Void. More agents of the Cloud.

...If my body was not so weak, I would slaughter them all. To see my children again. But that is then, and this is now. Still no sign of them. When my energy returns, I must look further.

Comments

[bloodyashes]

If you refuse to believe it, that doesn't change it.

... I would give my aid if I could.

[solarmother]

[She takes....a very long moment before she replies. It seems too personal to reply to, but at the same time...]

To write in these to allow all to see your words. It is how those trapped here communicate with one another.

[She carefully avoids calling it another world or the Void the other speaks of]

[In person]

[humble_scholar]

There's not much sign of anyone else there until after the door to the dorm shuts behind Thancred; he's...entirely too amused, weirdly, in a way that doesn't quite mesh with previous encounters.

Sorry Nero, he saw you fussing over the kids and you've tipped him off you're not a complete bastard.

"You know, one would think I would have learned during the last Cycle about Garlean posturing - and yet it still seems I misjudged you."

Nero's condition is worrying, but then, if Nero was able to write that at length, it probably won't kill him while they're talking.

[silver_lucifer]

There are entirely too many people that would deem those like your children 'not people' on learning they were created, and your conclusion deserves more reward.

[icebrand]

[ Ysayle reads and she reads, though there's much she doesn't understand. The politics of Eorzea aren't of as much value to her save for the ones of Dravania. Even then, the world has shown that history matters little as man is capable of changing texts to read in a way that favors them most.

... there is a part of this that calls out to her however so Ysayle writes in return. Her penmanship is commonplace among cultists, that of a child who hasn't had a proper learning yet knew that presentation was highly desired to those who had nothing else. ]

Your children?